azurite carnations

when you started crying in my arms, I know you also felt my tears soak into your shirt

it feels wrong to hold your hand knowing you’re not happy with yourself,

because my most wanted wish is for you to see yourself the way I see you.

I know being here anguishes you,

I wish I could deliver you the map to euphoria

don’t tell me that you only have so long,

I regret all the times of what I did after I said the same

I hope you know you can finally rest your legs.

you were devoted to someone else, and you didn’t have time to progress yourself

I know you endured all the pain he caused, and I promise I’ll be a different man.

I’ll be here with the swathes, I’ll pack them in your bag for your wandering

this time, you’ll promenade

as the butterfly you’ll become

will be even more gorgeous than the person you are now.

I’ll be blessed to see a beautiful heart like yours bloom.

I’ll be sending you love letters each day.

tell me about the things you love yourself,

tell me what you’re looking forward to,

tell me the beautiful things you saw in the world today,

and then I’ll tell you how much I’m proud of you.

I know you’re broken,

and I understand that you can’t deliver what I want

if you don’t have much water left to nurture our flowers, I understand.

I won’t be here to support you as a lover, but a friend

and, soon, one day, you can finally tell me

that you truly love yourself.