willem dafoe

maybe it has been too long to say

I am appreciative.

maybe because it’s hard to reach out

as I know there’s no reason to

maybe it’s because I regret some moments

that happened back then,

where I want to apologize

after growing up,

or maybe it’s because I love the other moments

and I want to tell you how you’ve influenced me

after growing up.

yet,I don’t mean to seem like

I haven’t moved on from our time together.

but I am appreciative.

though it’s difficult to find a reason to say

why I still care about you.

after all, who we were to each other is now

who you are to someone else,

and me to another.

is irrational to say I care about you ,

or can you agree you feel the same way?

some people would say so,

which is why I keep it hidden.

yet, why is it hard to say

that I am appreciative?

maybe it is because at this point

we’ve grown so differently

that the people we are now

wouldn’t go farther than strangers to each other.

but during the time we shared together,

we created what each other’s times are like

right now.

so I am appreciative.

nonetheless, if I tell you or not,

I hope you know somehow.